Good morning everyone! While I know Valentine’s Day passed, one thing my boyfriend and I love to do is handwrite little notes and letters to each other to read and this week I thought I would share with you all the letter I wrote to him for Valentine’s Day. I hope you enjoy!
Kayel, Hunter, Sully…the love of my life
This is the second year being your valentine and all I can say is wow. I grew up watching way too many love story movies secretly wishing I was in one but I never believed I would find any kind of love remotely close to those, but here I am at 23 experiencing one so much better than anything I have ever seen. From our very first date there was nothing but pure passion, love and romance. You completely blew me away by your amount of undivided attention, excitement to be with me, support and everything I did or wanted to do and respect and patience in letting me have the time and space I needed to fall in love on my own. Despite us both having extremely difficult times trusting people you still somehow managed to muster up the courage to give love one last shot and really let it in. You also made me feel like I could completely trust you and completely be myself with you. I could see it in your eyes and the way you looked at me that with each time you looked at me, you saw a new part of me, fell in love with it, and grew with so much excitement to learn as much as you possibly could; ready and eager to love all the parts of me there is to love. Just like you once wrote to me, loving me and falling in love with me was like reading your favorite book for the first time, so eager to flip through the pages but at the same time not wanting it to end. I can easily say the exact same thing about you.
I tried dating around a bit in high school and college, but no one really cared to stick around long enough to see past my looks to see the heart in me. As a result, my heart was torn over and over again by people who weren’t worthy of it . My mom kept telling me, “Kaycie one day a man will love you for every part of you, even the parts you can’t see. He will be a real man, not one of these stupid bitch boys and give you all of his love, complete time and undivided attention. One day you will have a man who could pick you up and throw you across the room like a football because of how big he is. Just be patient and trust me, he is out there.” I had already wrote off guys and love, but when I met you everything before you made sense. You are the only person that has had the ability to completely make me forget about everyone and everything else going on around me, put my phone down and lose complete track of time with you. As I have told you before, from our very first date when you picked me up with the prettiest pink roses saying, “Flowers are necessary for a lady like you and they have to be pink because I thought it gave it a little something extra, don’t you think?” Winking at me in the process. You were checking off boxes on my dream man list; checking off boxes from a list you couldn’t even see. You blew through that list, tossed it away and came back as if to smile at me and say, “Yeah, what else you got for me?” Every day felt like a brand new adventure, and you made me smile in a way where I didn’t care where we were or the fact that it was freezing cold and raining. You made me smile in a way that I could not only feel on my face but in a way that I could feel my heart and soul were smiling too. I knew I was the happiest I had ever been because everyone around me could see it and told me how happy and glowey I looked. My response was always with an even bigger smile, because I knew exactly the reason why. Aside from being the happiest I have ever been, the best part about dating you and being your girlfriend is that you have always made me feel like I am the only girl you had your eyes on, and I never worried or believed for a split second you were talking to anyone else or playing any sort of game with me. You were a true alpha male, and you made it very clear to me with your words and more importantly, your actions, that I was the only girl you were interested in and the only girl you wanted. I have always told people that the most attractive quality in a man is not his smile, his arms or his eyes. There is nothing more attractive to me than a man who knows what he wants and what he wants is me. You are the epitome of that.
It’s almost impossible to put into words how to describe our love for one another because it’s far beyond anything I ever saw on tv or even imagined in my dreams. Our love is the kind of love that uses stop signs and red lights for kisses, is not only sharing but giving the last bite of the meal for the other person, sharing absolutely everything, and spending all day everyday together without ever getting bored (and after almost 2 years, this still holds true). Our love teleports us to another dimension and we’re oblivious to the world around us. Your love for me helped spark a new passion for writing and music and the creation of content in a way that I have never felt before in my life. I never imagined I’d have such an incredibly sweet and loving person walk up and introduce themselves to me at the Arnold, but there you were. I will never grow tired of telling people the story of how we met because it’s not just the typical “we met at a bar,” “we matched on Tinder,” or “he slid in my DMs” story everyone else is too familiar with. We met at the place that not only encouraged but truly birthed the idea of growth and working towards creating the best versions of ourselves through health, fitness and wellness. Our love story began in a place that promotes positivity and not only finding but creating happiness in health and making good life decisions; bringing like-minded people together to help build each other up and help one another become successful.
Thank you for giving me the kind of love and happiness that I will undoubtedly write book and countless songs about. Thank you for being my rock and creating not just the strongest anchor for me, but for making me feel completely weightless on what seem to be the darkest of days. I was always terrified to fall in love because I have only ever gotten hurt but you made falling in love the fastest, easiest and most fun and thrilling feeling there is to feel. Your love is proof to me that love is pure magic on this earth and I have complete faith that it will live on til the end of time. I love you so much, you are my everything and although this is only our second valentines day together I have no doubt you will be my forever valentine. You will forever be my always.
All my love,
Kaycie, your boobear, your little squishable